Lack of update.. Win?

Day 299

Fail!

How long has it been since the last update? Pretty damn long, I don’t have any valid excuses and to be honest I don’t need any excuses. This is my own blog after all, I update when I see fit, even if I know lack of updates may lose me some readers… do I even have any readers?

Well no matter.

NaNoWriMo has come and gone, while I knew I couldn’t stick to a single subject for a whole month and write over 50k words for it, I did mostly as I had last year. Last year I had a list with a hundred theme and wrote at least 500 words for each. Reading them over at this point, it makes me cringe.

This year instead, I had one subject a day, two when I had time for more (that happened only twice), and my personal daily goal was for 1,800 words. I hit my personal goal every single day, on two days at the beginning of the month I doubled that.

For a good part of November I actually worked eight hours a day (eleven to eight at night, I had to leave at nine fifty which didn’t leave overmuch time to actually write between getting up, taking care of the dogs and preparing to leave) so I only wrote at night.

Those eight hours were usually split between two parts of the company as a whole, administration and accounting so by the time I was home, I was worn but still sat down to write because I needed to, because I wanted to. I need to write more. Adding NaNoWriMo to my yearly wordcount (I swear I should start keeping an Excel word file!) I’m a little over the 110k words so far. Not taking into account all the talking/plotting I do as I figure it does count but shouldn’t since it’s not writing-writing.

A project I started last year but barely worked on this year is Alexander (for lack of a proper title for it yet). I have all chapters plotted out and ready to be written. I just haven’t felt like writing for that one yet.

This year, projects include: Taking the Plunge, where I saved some of my works from NaNo ‘08 and worked on fixing them, making them longer. At the beginning of this project, I had saved fourteen titles and now I’m down to eight, if not six. It’s fine.

Second project is my KOMA Project, a story about a man from the now-times who suddenly falls into a coma and his parents, not wishing him to die yet, have him put to cryo-sleep, out of which he’ll only be coming out some thousand years from now.

Micha’s Life is yet another project in the work. I also have everything plotted out but have had little desire to work on it. Set in the steampunk era, I hope to eventually do something worth reading with it.

Modern Fairy Tales. Who hasn’t thought about doing that? I want to change their stories enough to make the basic, original idea shine through but not keep it to that. Also a project that was partly started but hasn’t really gone anywhere so far.

Epoca. Work on which I started to work more presently this year. A name I want to change and eventually will when I come up with something better. I had even started up an explorer’s journal but it drifted into the abyss like many other projects. Not completely forgotten, just set aside for now.

I have to say that the year has been a little rough in the writing theme and I hope that next year will be better.

There are so many other things I could write about, complain about, sigh about but I don’t think there’s much of a reason to. Those who need to know about them already do and that’s what should count. I don’t live my life for it to be shared with millions of people, I live my life as it is and when there are things I think could be shared, I share them.

So that’s it for now. I have no excuse for the lack of update, but as I just mentioned, this blog isn’t about updating every day with useless, pointless stuff. It’s about me wanting to share some things with the world, now and again. I may merge an account or two together, I’m not sure, but we’ll see.

Photo blog, 365 project and more… I think?

Day 248

Wow, it’s been a really long time since I’ve uploaded this. Does anyone even read this thing? It’s always been more a personal thing than anything else but I’m grateful for anyone that does come up for a read, it feels good.

So here’s a short update on things and life:

Have another 365 project being worked up, haven’t started yet but I might start it up before I finish the one currently in the runs. This one will be a Photo project, so one photo a day (at least one, if anything) and the blog they shall be posted up on is here (will open in a new window).

I have been writing a little every day but not as much as I wish I could or should. The writer’s block has been somewhat present no matter where I look or what I do though I’m trying to overcome that. I think today will be a writing day, there are a few things I want to scribble down so there’s to hoping it’ll get through.

Work is work. It’s not the best work in the world but it pays so I shall be keeping my whining and complaining to myself. The team’s nice and cool, so it’s a plus.

Lesse, is there anything else? I don’t know, might be a post on CS later on, but it’s best to not keep our fingers crossed for that one.

And sadly, that’s about it.

Ah, no wait. Also preparing for NaNoWriMo though I know this year again I won’t be able to write a -novel- per say but I will write on several different subjects and hope to snag the 50k words as I should.

Not Today

Day 211

It’s been nearly ten years since I last wrote poetry. Been feeling a little down as of lately and this came out. It means what you want it to mean. This isn’t a call for attention. It’s just an escape.

Pay attention
      and you’ll see
Nothing hidden
      bare for the world to see
Dig a little
      to find me
A dip to the other side
      the real me

Off a bridge?
cliché.

Train tracks?
messy.

How would the world see me,
how would the world judge me?

Is there nothing left of me?

Running on empty,
Carcass fed to the hungry
I can’t just leave you be.

Why won’t you save me?

Thoughts and comments are welcome but I won’t reply to anything asking me how I’m doing and if I’m alright. This isn’t a call for help. It’s just a poem. I’m fine.

A small thing

Day 195

For the past two months, though I have kept on writing just a little on the side, I have had little to no inspiration whatsoever. You consider me most surprised that I’ve been able to create new characters… though I’d have to say they mostly created themselves.

This post won’t be long, there’s little to offer or so I figure at this point.

1. Went to Québec City’s Aquarium yesterday. It was a bit of a let down, I was expecting more than what I got. We didn’t go into the ‘ocean tunnel’ as the line was long as hell, it was already one thirty and if we wanted to go in without waiting in line, it would have been around fifteen to three. From the top, it was a gorgeous site and I really would have wanted to go. Maybe if we go back in winter we’ll have more to look at. That and the polar bears ought to be more happy. It was hot as hell that day.

I did get a few nice photos and those I’ll be taking care of either tonight or tomorrow.

2. Two jobs still going though I have two weekends off from the Madonna House since it’s so quiet. Xittel, on the other hand, does keep me busy. The customer support team (ours) moved into a brand new building this weekend, there’s still plenty of dust around and it’s not as clean as I wish it could be. The cleaning crew starts in next weekend, I’m told. Otherwise, it’s spacious if a little cool at the moment.

3. Had to take a few of my pair of pants to be fitted again since I lost damn near 25lbs since last November though I personally still want to drop at least fifteen more, then I’ll be happy.

That seems to be mostly it. New characters running around. Chance, for one, a race car driver, Thierry, Sasha and Nika (nicknames for the three of them) whom are university students.

I also know it’s been over forty days since my last written update and I have no excuse.

Work, odd hours, more work

Day 155

It feels as if it’s been forever and a day since I last updated, and I apologize to anyone who, if anyone, reads this.

Life’s taken odd turns. I still work hours here and there at the Maison de la Madone. It takes a lot out of me despite that I’ve been working there for already two months.

Tomorrow I have an interview for a job that is actually in my branch though it has a lot to do with the phone itself. Still. It’s 20/h a week so I imagine it’s half-days, either eight to noon or one to five. Or two full days and a half or something, we’ll see tomorrow. Keeping my finger crossed.

Despite my not caring much for the phone, I would still rather be doing a job in my branch rather than grunt work in a dining room.

One has to admit though, the work at the Madonna House is hard and taxing on the body, but the team is wonderful and it is hard not to like spending them with them all.

My left knee, however, is giving me trouble at the moment so I appreciate the days off. I work Saturday evening and then morning and supper shift on Sunday. It’s quite though it’ll get more hectic. Not sure I can handle hectic so much so I’m hoping to be able to snag that other job. I guess I’d still be open to weekends at the Madonna House though.

Other side of life, I talked with one of my friends yesterday, we were discussing writing and I realized that since the beginning of the year, I’ve barely written for 65k worth of anything in all my scrambled projects. Most of that in my Alexander story. I need to write more.

In the midst of nowhere

Pfft. Day 137

At times.

At times I wish I could start all over.

Be a nobody. Have no experience, know nobody and be known by nobody.

Then I tell myself: Oh wait. I already am a nobody. There are just some things I wish I could forget and leave far behind. There are things I already forget that I wish I wouldn’t.

Why can’t things just go the way they should? Or is it that things do go the way they should which isn’t the way I wish they would?

Bah.

Some free time…

Day 125

Well then. I figured I could set up another small post.

Been working most days since I was hired at the beginning of the month. The first paycheck came in and that was a sweet, sweet feeling. I’ve been behaved well enough and haven’t touched it.

I’ve been doing a little work left and right on stories and small ideas though I haven’t really -written- as much as I wish I could. I haven’t had much inspiration either so it barely helps.

Work is killing me, near figuratively. I can barely stand on my own two feet after my shifts because those very feet hurt to the death of me. My back isn’t so bad anymore on that aspect though.

Going to have to check with the dentist though, as of a few days, I’ve developed a hypersensitivity to cold and heat near one of the teeth they worked on. I know they can’t do anything about it but I still want to ask. I also cannot eat anything with any real substance to it near that very teeth (this time the bottom one where the other was at the top) because it hurts like a bitch.

Short entry, currently hungry, but I did post. I’ve set up a page with my Squiby adoptables in order until we have a way to set them up that way on the site.

For anyone wondering, Squiby is a site where people can draw their own adoptables and people can adopt them. I’ve fallen prey, as of the past few months, to the world of pixel adoptables. I might as well make a list of all my accounts left and right, who knows what good it might do me.

All links will open in a new window/tab:
UniCreatures Profile | Valenth Feeding Thread |
Waja Cave | Dragon Cave | Dragon Adopters |
MagiStream Creatures | ChickenSmoothie Pets |

Dentists and Work

Day 112

Two dentist appointments in less than twenty four hours, a few hours or work, little time to work, some laundry, my life has taken a rather drastic change of destination despite how small these changes may seem to those out there who think differently.

Yesterday, at two ten, I went into the dentist’s office for my first appointment to take care of those cavities I had. Keep in mind, I hadn’t been to the teeth-folks for over fifteen years so I had a few issues to take care of. They worked on both up and down of the right side, took care of five cavities while they were supposed to only take care of four, the one extra was an in-between teeth one and had it been left alone, it simply would have had to be done over some time later.

The right side of my face was altogether numb, from up to my nose, down to my chin. An uncomfortable feeling, I’d have to say. By the time I had dinner, I was mostly thawed out but still had trouble eating. By nine-ish I was back to normal, along with a painful twinge along my jaw, of course.

Today, one twenty, I went in for my second appointment, the last three cavities to see too, all upper left so only half of my face is currently numb and I don’t know whether that is more uncomfortable than both up and down. If anything, I do have to admit that it isn’t quite as bothersome as yesterday. We’ll have to see tonight.

Work is… well it’s different from what I’m used to. We’re two new girls being trained in and it’s not work I really enjoy, but it’s an income. The other girl though, not because I want to talk behind her back, but because it needs stated, is a clutz and something of a ditz.

We worked breakfast and lunch shift on Sunday and several times while she was cleaning the tables, she spilled salt, and being supersitious, threw some over her shoulder. We’d just finished sweeping and mopping the floor!

Today, we were preparing one-serving ice cream containers and as we were finishing up, mostly closing up the containers, she pulled out more, I had to tell her twice that we were actually done and that we didn’t need to do anymore.

I was tired enough after the shift (I still need to get used to being on my feet for long periods of time) that I asked her to drive me home. I told her to turn at the corner store (as I live just a street down from there) but she literally turned into the corner store’s parking lot. I didn’t exactly want to fuss much and since I was so close, I did get out, waved her off.

I don’t know if it’s because she’s blond or if it’s because she’s blond? Ah well.

Good news, sad news

Day 107

So, it’s been a little while since I updated this so I figured I’d put something up here to keep a few vague people coming back for more, not that there really is anything interesting in these things, but eh, right?

So, good news is I have a job. Well, I’m on tryout, it’s minimum wage and so far I only have four shifts, each shift about three-four hours each. It’s a job in a buffet place near the Shrine where I live, it’s called Maison de la Madone, it’s something of a small hotel for the pilgrims. There’s the breakfast, starting at six thirty, lunch (at which time I’m not sure when it starts as my second shift is breakfast and lunch, we’re expected to be done around two thirty) and dinner, usually have to be there at four but since it’ll be my first shift, I have to be there for three thirty.

That’s good news and I’m happy for it.

Sad news, at least as far as I’m concerned, is that I have, had at this point, an eyebrow piercing. It’s in the food industry so it’s no jewellery and instead of taking it out, putting it back in, taking it out again, or even, putting on a bandaid and taking it off to cover it, I decided on taking it off. Only other issue is the earrings I’ll have to take off but I’ll learn with it, I just usually have trouble putting them back -in-. But all in good time.

My first appointment for the dentist is coming up this Monday, I have a breakfast shift the following Tuesday, so a small part of me desperately hopes that the whole fillings-job won’t leave me cotton-mouth for the next morning.

And that’s mostly it. Been plotting a whole lot as of lately and it feels good.

Wikidot and more Época

Day 90

So here’s for a short update once more as more work is done via paper.

I set up a wikidot site, I’m not sure how far I’ll go with it, but I might add stuff up here and there. It looks like a good idea since my stuff is so spread out at the moment but we’ll see, I’m rather fond of my other blog where most of what would end up on the wikidot is. Still, it doesn’t hurt, I guess.

Still on the hunt for a job and that won’t stop ’till I get somewhere, of course. Of course, once I find a job, I’ll have a little less time but it’ll be money, so no complaining.

All work Época related will be posted up on the above-mentioned blog starting from now on. That blog, though some may feel it to be pretentiously named, holds information about the characters I created, the worlds I create, everything I made is in there, hence its name. I am not God, I will never consider myself ‘god’, but I do hold power over what I create.

End of that ramble.

Today, as also mentioned above, more paper-based work, again mostly Época centric. If anyone’s interested, I do have the beginning of a story posted up here.